Happy and Hollow
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Literature Text
There’s a lump in my throat, rocks in my gut
Want to run but I won’t, can’t get out of this rut
I’m still not the person that I want to be
But slowly I’m learning what it means to be me
Can’t see where I’m headed, I can’t hear a sound
So I feel for the walls as I stumble around
Hoping so badly that I’ll find a hold
And if I stop moving I’ll rot and I’ll mold
I spend countless hours killing time each day
Just hoping and dreaming for a map, or a way
At the times I want something so bad I can taste it
And the universe won’t give it up, I just fake it
They all think that I’m happy, doing just fine
But these thoughts in my skull drive me out of my mind
They never let go, held hostage in my head
And it takes all my energy to just rise from bed
Don’t know where I’m headed, barely know where I’ve been
Looking for something to make me whole once again
It’s not in a bottle, doesn’t flow through a pipe
Simply want a way to turn on the light
On the good days it feels like I’ve lit a match
I can see just enough for a plan to hatch
Then it burns out, all fades back to black
And I wonder if I’ll ever find my way back
To the place where I was, to the knowledge I found
Like a long-forgotten treasure, deep underground
I dig and I dig, but the ground won’t give way
I get weaker and weaker, each wasted day
I have very few companions, and all lost like me
But sometimes it helps to turn “I” into “we”
Collaboration, brainstorming, a collective mind
When luck’s on our side, it helps us to find
Something ahead, some glimmer of light
A goal to move towards, a reason to fight
The path that we travel will never be straight
Some find it easy, and I pity their fate
They’ll spend their lives in a cage, following the rules
Running in a wheel, nibbling pellets like fools
Outside the box is the place to be
But outside the box there are few besides me
And the ones that I find are equally bleak
Beaten down by the truth, broken and weak
Yet it’s a better option than being trapped inside
So many never lived, til the moment they died
Those of us who are out wandering free
Are the hope of the world, the example to be
We're the template of change, the ones to follow
Better unhappy and sane, than happy and hollow